Easter Card

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“Easter Chimes Awaken Nature” by Alphonse Mucha

Seraphim sing in no time zone. Cherubim see

as clearly on as back, invest acacia wood with arkhood

in their certainty; their winged ornamentation

gilds the tabernacle shade. Comprehending the

compacted plan centered in every seed, the grown

plant is no more real to them, and no surprise.

Dampened by neither doubt nor supposition,

the archangel sees with eyes sharper than ours.

For him, reality’s seemingly random choice is all clear

Cause and Effect: each star of snow tells of intelligence;

each cell carries its own code; at a glance each angel

knows from whence the crests of all the wrinkles on

the sea rebound. He has eternity to tell it all,

and to rejoice.

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“Easter Angel” by Salvador Dali

But here and now in Judea, what is

this scandal of particularity? This conjunction of straw

and splendor? Of deity and agony? The echo of

sharp laughter from a crowd, as hammered nails pierce flesh,

pierces the Bright Ones with perplexity. They see

the Maker’s hands helpless against Made Wood.

The bond is sealed with God’s blood, the body buried.

In this is Love’s substance become darkness

to their light. The Third Day sweetens the mystery.

Astonished heralds now of Resurrection,

they have eternity to solve it, and to praise.

 

 — from “Angel Vision” by Luci Shaw

Did you know that Hallmark commissioned Salvador Dali to make a series of greeting cards? I believe this must have been one of the few images saccharin enough for such a use, and yet…. Trusting the artist enough to look deeper I see that butterfly crucified and the angel meditating on the grueling and transformative power of the cross, on death and resurrection and God and humanity revealed in one body.

Happy Easter! Christ is risen!

Lenten Calendar: Holy Saturday

It happened today on my start screen calendar. I watched it flip from Good Friday directly to Easter (tomorrow), with nary a Holy Saturday in between. One of the earliest Christian heresies was that Jesus didn’t really die. There were variations on the theme — he merely swooned, or he was never so human or incarnate or mortal as to be able to manage it.

To be fair, it really is hard to reconcile the fully God and fully human thing with being fully dead and then fully capable of doing something about it. Go ahead and try for a minute; I’ll wait.

There has been much written on the scandal of the cross, but to a large degree, that’s just human nature and divine nature played out to their fullest. Of course if God shows up to restore justice we’re going to crucify him. And of course God will let us.

What’s truly shocking is the day after that, and the day after that. Death and resurrection are the true scandals. That we could stop the pulse of the one who set the planets in motion. That God would come back to us afterward, promising life abundant.

The church calendar doesn’t skip from Good Friday to Easter. It makes space for a great silence, a deep reckoning and wrestling with the consequences of what we have done. The people in Jesus’s life have followed him, loved him, betrayed him, mocked him, and killed him. And today they mourn him.

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“Oh Mother, fountain of love, cause me to feel your pain, so that I may cry with you.”                                                                                                           photo by Jenn Cavanaugh

This Lent, we have walked together alone through unrelenting cycles of grief and confusion. Today we have been given a day to name and mourn our losses, to feel and so clarify our feelings. Sometimes we only recognize what we truly love for what it truly is when it has been taken away from us.

Your absence has gone through me
Like thread through a needle.
Everything I do is stitched with its color.
— “Separation” by W. S. Merwin

This is a season of apocalypse, not in that the world is ending, but in that one superficial layer of it has been pulled back to reveal another layer of depth. What have you seen that you can’t unsee? Make a note of it, because there will be a temptation to snap out of this weirdness and revert to a version of “reality” that merely glossed over what is real.

We are living in a time in which the old has passed away and new has not yet come. For today, let’s just sit here a spell and reckon with it. We might feel like we’re stuck in Stephen King’s novel The Stand (for which he is, apparently sorry), but it’s a line and image from his Pet Sematary that should stick with us now: “Sometimes, dead is better.” We didn’t go through all of this for that kind of twisted at-all-costs reanimation, did we?

This is the time to sift between the habits we miss because they brought consolation to the world and those that simply made us comfortably numb to it.

It’s okay to grieve the loss of normalcy, to admit that it hurts to give up the things that make us happy. I, for one, should be traveling next week, not making sack lunches for homeless teens with nowhere to be during the day.

Or should I?

This is not the fast we would have chosen, but if we can see it through in the spirit of the fast God chooses, then we and the world will ultimately be better for it.

Yesterday we buried our dead. Today we mourn. Tomorrow we will have the holy task of ushering back to life what is worthy of our love and devotion and co-creating the world anew.

Lenten Calendar: Maundy Thursday

 

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Le Christ au jardin des Oliviers   — Gustave Moreau

Descending Theology: The Garden

We know he was a man because, once doomed,

he begged for reprieve. See him

grieving on his rock under olive trees,

his companions asleep

on the hard ground around him

wrapped in old hides.

Not one stayed awake as he’d asked.

That went through him like a sword.

He wished with all his being to stay

but gave up

bargaining at the sky. He knew

it was all mercy anyhow,

unearned as breath. The Father couldn’t intervene,

though that gaze was never

not rapt, a mantle around him. This

was our doing, our death.

The dark prince had poured the vial of poison

into the betrayer’s ear,

and it was done. Around the oasis where Jesus wept,

the cracked earth radiated out for miles.

In the green center, Jesus prayed for the pardon

of Judas, who was approaching

with soldiers, glancing up – as Christ was – into

the punctured sky till his neck bones

ached. Here is his tear-riven face come

to press a kiss on his brother.

–Mary Carr

The American Church in Paris just posted a short film for Maundy Thursday. The voiced-over reflections by youth and young adults from the congregation capture the spirit of the times, both now and then: a gathering of disciples processing the events of the last few weeks, discussing how the world has changed and what the future may hold, trying to find meaning and make sense of it all without the benefit of hindsight; denial and admission of fear; incredulity in the face of death.

Lenten Calendar: Releasing Captives

Today’s lectionary text from Isaiah 42 describes the Lord’s chosen servant and the gentle and faithful justice he will mete. In verse 7, God charges him:

You will give sight to the blind,
                bring prisoners out of prisons,
                    and bring those who live in darkness
                        out of dungeons. (God’s Word Translation)

Jesus preached his first sermon on the first bit of Isaiah 61, and made it clear that he was that selfsame chosen servant. This is Jesus’s “life verse:”

The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me,
Because the Lord has anointed Me
To preach good tidings to the poor;
He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to the captives,
And the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord (Isaiah 61:1-2a, NKJV)

In exegeting another text referring to this “acceptable time” of salvation, Paul makes it clear that we are also called to be the Lord’s servants, and NOW is the acceptable time (2 Corinthians 6:1-2). God’s favor is ongoing and we are to preach this same good news. And you know what?

There’s never been a better time to set some captives free.

I realize this feels like wading into the political, but the gospel does that sometimes. Sorry. I’m just a messenger.

Honestly, though, I think we might have more common ground here than we’re told we do. We all have to reconcile in our theologies the Biblical images of radical forgiveness and “eye for an eye” consequences. We might lean ideologically toward one end or the other of that spectrum, but we can generally agree that that is the spectrum. Punishments should fit the crime. We can support a correctional system, but not institutionalized cruelty. We seek peace and justice, not perpetuating cycles of violence and vengeance.

Any one of us could think of any number of crimes that could land a person in prison, but that don’t warrant the kind of Russian roulette to which mass confinement in a time of Covid-19 has now sentenced them.

Likewise, any one of us could think of detained populations that don’t deserve to be in heightened danger. Not all of them get as much air time as nursing home residents and cruise ship passengers, but they’re often in even tighter quarters, and in less control of crucial practices of basic hygeine. Political prisoners. Asylum-seekers. Hurting people caught in possession of drugs. Folks guilty of, or simply accused of, misdemeanorsPsychiatric patients committed “for their own safety” and youth remanded to juvenile detention “for their own good.” People in jail as part of “due process,” not as the result of it.

Let’s advocate for them. Demand their release. Sponsor them. Post bail for them. Write a letter on behalf of political prisoners. Request house arrest rather than solitary confinement for an inmate with a medical condition. At least make sure they have soap. Pray for them:

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“Prisoners Exercising” by Vincent van Gogh

I call for you cultivation of strength in the dark.
Dark gardening
in the vertigo cold.
in the hot paralysis.
Under the wolves and coyotes of particular silences.
Where it is dry.
Where it is dry.
I call for you
cultivation of victory Over
long blows that you want to give and blows you are going to get.

Over
what wants to crumble you down, to sicken
you. I call for you
cultivation of strength to heal and enhance
in the non-cheering dark,
in the many many mornings-after;
in the chalk and choke.

 — “To Prisoners” by Gwendolyn Brooks

 

Lenten Calendar: Discipleship

 

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Bare Trees by Paul Gauguin

 

Hymn

I know if I find you I will have to leave the earth
and go on out
     over the sea marshes and the brant in bays
and over the hills of tall hickory
and over the crater lakes and canyons
and on up through the spheres of diminishing air
past the blackset noctilucent clouds
          where one wants to stop and look
way past all the light diffusions and bombardments
up farther than the loss of sight
     into the unseasonal undifferentiated empty stark

And I know if I find you I will have to stay with the earth
inspecting with thin tools and ground eyes
trusting the microvilli sporangia and simplest
     coelenterates
and praying for a nerve cell
with all the soul of my chemical reactions
and going right on down where the eye sees only traces

You are everywhere partial and entire
You are on the inside of everything and on the outside

I walk down the path down the hill where the sweetgum
has begun to ooze spring sap at the cut
and I see how the bark cracks and winds like no other bark
chasmal to my ant-soul running up and down
and if I find you I must go out deep into your
     far resolutions
and if I find you I must stay here with the separate leaves

— A. R. Ammons

Jesus is quickening the pace toward Jerusalem and the cross. What must you do to keep up?

 

Lenten Calendar: In the Dark

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Abstract #2 by Trisha Gilmore

I said to my soul, be still, and let the dark come upon you
Which shall be the darkness of God. As, in a theatre,
The lights are extinguished, for the scene to be changed
With a hollow rumble of wings, with a movement of darkness on darkness,
And we know that the hills and the trees, the distant panorama
And the bold imposing facade are all being rolled away–
Or as, when an underground train, in the tube, stops too long between stations
And the conversation rises and slowly fades into silence
And you see behind every face the mental emptiness deepen
Leaving only the growing terror of nothing to think about;
Or when, under ether, the mind is conscious but conscious of nothing–
I said to my soul, be still, and wait without hope
For hope would be hope for the wrong thing; wait without love,
For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith
But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.
Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought:
So the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.

– from Four Quartets by T. S. Eliot

 

Lenten Calendar: From the Depths

De Profundis

Oh why is heaven built so far,
Oh why is earth set so remote?
I cannot reach the nearest star
That hangs afloat.
I would not care to reach the moon,
One round monotonous of change;
Yet even she repeats her tune
Beyond my range.
I never watch the scatter’d fire
Of stars, or sun’s far-trailing train,
But all my heart is one desire,
And all in vain:
For I am bound with fleshly bands,
Joy, beauty, lie beyond my scope;
I strain my heart, I stretch my hands,
And catch at hope.
— Christina Rossetti

Press play and compose your own prayer from the depths

Oh why …

…?

I would not …

I …

And all in vain:

For I …

And catch at hope.

Lenten Calendar: Call to Action

“If you get rid of unfair practices,
    quit blaming victims,
    quit gossiping about other people’s sins,
If you are generous with the hungry
    and start giving yourselves to the down-and-out,
Your lives will begin to glow in the darkness,
    your shadowed lives will be bathed in sunlight.

— Isaiah 58:9-10 (The Message)

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“Georgetown Corner in the Rain” by Bernice Cross

Harlem Hopscotch

One foot down, then hop! It’s hot.
          Good things for the ones that’s got.
Another jump, now to the left.
          Everybody for hisself.
In the air, now both feet down.
         Since you black, don’t stick around.
Food is gone, the rent is due,
          Curse and cry and then jump two.
All the people out of work,
         Hold for three, then twist and jerk.
Cross the line, they count you out.
          That’s what hopping’s all about.
Both feet flat, the game is done.
They think I lost. I think I won.
— Maya Angelou

 

It’s the first of the month, and the rent is due.

Economists expect that unemployment this spring will rival that of the Great Depression. More and more of us are part of a gig economy that’s got no gigs right now. It won’t be long before people who were barely getting by can’t manage it alone, while people who have always considered ourselves financially independent will learn how financially interdependent we have always been.

What can you and I do right now to “start giving [y]ourselves to the down-and-out?” The time is right for trying on new ways of “living simply so that others may simply live.”

Organizations are reinventing their service models on a daily basis to keep people in their homes and keep the hungry fed. They probably have a banner on the front page of their website right now inviting you to consider new ways you might fit into making those new models work.

What relationships can we deepen into partnerships of mutual support? What services can you offer? Which of your own needs do you worry you will no longer be provide for yourself? Who can you talk to instead of merely worrying?

How can we direct our buying right now to best support people who use that income to support families? What resources might you have literally lying around taking up space in your confined quarters that would help enliven someone else’s?

Lenten Calendar: Creation as Service

Not even five weeks ago, back when none of us thought we’d be giving up going to work or church or the gym for Lent, I was thinking about the fast described in Isaiah 58, and how this season was a call to action.

In the meantime, so many of our regular ways of serving have gone on hiatus. We’re cut off from the people we care for and our own daily needs are shifting, well, daily. Rather than developing deeper, sustainable rhythms of drawing out our souls on behalf of others, we’ve found ourselves in crisis mode.

How then, shall we serve? How do we redeem the time? How do we satisfy the afflicted souls and our own (Isaiah 58:10-11)?

Obviously, we need to be open to new and creative ways of doing so. As we seek entertainment and solace, we’re recognizing a collective need and appreciation for poetry and stories, art and music. So let’s recognize the creation thereof as a form of simultaneous service and soul-care.

For your sake poets sequester themselves,
gather images to churn the mind,
journey forth, ripening with metaphor,
and all their lives they are so alone…
And painters paint their pictures only
that the world, so transient as you made it,
can be given back to you,
to last forever.

All becomes eternal. See: In the Mona Lisa
some woman has long since ripened like wine,
and the enduring feminine is held there
through all the ages.

Those who create are like you.
They long for the eternal.
They say, Stone, be forever!
And that means: be yours.

Awakening desire, they make a place
where pain can enter;
that’s how growing happens.
They bring suffering along with their laughter,
and longings that had slept and now awaken
to weep in a stranger’s arms….

— Rainer Maria Rilke, trans. Anita Barrows and Joanna Macy

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Philosopher and Poet by Giorgio de Chirico

Personally, I find it more daunting than to motivating to hear how Shakespeare wrote King Lear while quarantined. It’s about as helpful as comparing your ministry to Jesus’ at age 33. For every one of us with extra time on our hands, there must be a dozen feeling more burdened and busy. My mental space for creative work has telescoped in on itself, rather than expanded. But. I do find that making creative time enhances my mental space — if I’m realistic about where I’m at and let myself be in it for the process more than the product. Don’t expect to produce your best work right now, but let yourself be play at being an artist. Set aside a time to sequester yourself like a poet instead of just staying home.

Make it a small regular gesture, or make it unsustainably all-consuming for a day, but find a way to assert your humanity in an environment that’s conditioning us to think of ourselves and others as medical statistics or economic units.

Sketch that view out your window and exchange it with a friend. Chronicle your thoughts in a lasting way, or in such a way that you can walk away from them for a while. Sing while cooking for one again or the twenty-first meal this week. Curate a playlist. Create something the best you can and then release it. Even if it’s only sufficient to charm or cheer yourself and your mother for a quarter of an hour or a dozen strangers for a minute or six of your most like-minded friends for five minutes, that’s half an hour of charm or cheer that would not have otherwise existed, and the making itself will help your cooped-up soul stretch.

Lenten Calendar: A Sacrifice of Worship

As more and more of us worship from home, we are most of us establishing a new discipline. We are loving our neighbor by sacrificing the easy, rhythmic habit of gathering together.

Today’s poem is a reminder that we are the church, worshipping a God who is everywhere present, and “Whose only now is forever.” Whenever we come before God in worship, and however we come before God in worship, we do so along with all the saints everywhere and throughout all of time.

It also plays nicely with this Sunday’s lectionary readings, so I’ll be reading it as our call to worship tomorrow, as I lead worship online for the first time. May it call you into “the deathless truth of [God’s] presence.”

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Landscape with Church Spires and Trees by Max Weber

i am a little church(no great cathedral) – i do not worry if briefer days grow briefest,
i am not sorry when sun and rain make april

my life is the life of the reaper and the sower;
my prayers are prayers of earth’s own clumsily striving (finding and losing and laughing and crying)children whose any sadness or joy is my grief or my gladness

around me surges a miracle of unceasing
birth and glory and death and resurrection:
over my sleeping self float flaming symbols
of hope, and i wake to a perfect patience of mountains

i am a little church(far from the frantic
world with its rapture and anguish)at peace with nature – i do not worry if longer nights grow longest;
i am not sorry when silence becomes singing

winter by spring, i lift my diminutive spire to
merciful Him Whose only now is forever:
standing erect in the deathless truth of His presence (welcoming humbly His light and proudly His darkness)

— e.e. cummings